it's hard to believe in someone these days... it's really hard to counting on somebody.... it's kinda hard to know what is worth to trust, to feel....
but it's so easy to ruin everything... it's so easy to cracking some trust... it's really easy to turn every words and facts....
just for what??? is it just for something that'll loose in the end?? vanish without anything left again... just for money, powers, passions, satisfaction, human protection, for someone who can makes u feel alive...makes you feel something special...
or for love... the blind love, the mortal love... the unpure one...the unworthy one...
maybe i just don't know what the love is... or maybe i just don't care but what i know is, when someone trust you, you must hold it... you must keep it with your life... until your last breath... your last blood... last soul...
maybe we are not perfect... but it's worth to try... cus God's loves the tryer...
so please help us God... dear Almighty God.... Greatest One... Who knows everything 'bout world and everything in it...
please help us to knowing which way the best for us, please give us some courage to stay in Your way, some consistency for keeping the secret, please show us what will we do now or later, to whom should we've trust, and please forgive us for all of our faults caused by our lackness, lessness and weakness...
cus You, and only just You the One we can holding on, counting on, we can trust, and believe...and only to You we will be back...Your the One and the Greatest One...
ameennn....
_not too tough_not so sure_unsaint_but it's pure_ (;chup@chups;)
Turn down the lights, turn down the bed Turn down these voices inside my head Lay down with me, tell me no lies Just hold me close, don't patronize Don't patronize me
'cause i can't make you love me if you don't You can't make your heart feel something it won't Here in the dark in these final hours I will lay down my heart, and i'll feel the power But you won't, no you won't And i can't make you love me If you don't
I'll close my eyes and then i won't see The love you do not feel, when you're holding me Morning will come, and i'll do what's right Just give me till then, to give up this fight And i will give up this fight
And i can't make you love me if you don't You can't make your heart feel something it won't And here in the dark in these final hours I will lay down my heart and i'll feel the power But you won't, no, you won't And i can't make you love me If you don't
Ain't no use in you trying It's no good for me baby without love All my tears, all these years, everything i believed in Baby Oh yeah Someone's gonna love me
songs: i can't make you love me played by: George Michael
tau kan, nih lagu??? blah, kalo ga tau mendingan pada kudu cari dan dengerin deh... it's my all time favorite song the voice melt into the beats, the beats gave a melody, the melody makes the harmony, the harmony keeps the song stays in my heart, and locked by the lyrics... saking senengnya ma nih lagu, diputer bekali2 juga gw ga bosen dah...
gw sangat setuju ma isinya....
tapi...
kenapa belakangan ini jd pengalaman pribadi, ya?? kenapa nih lagu rasanya makin nendang, ya???
at first it happened around me, tp kok terakhir gw jd ikutan merasakan, ya??? awalnya gw kira ini karma, tp yah sudahlah...klo mang bener, toh gw udh berusaha jd a better person in life (not just in somebody's life, yah)...segala sesuatu ga ada yg percuma, bung...klo lu temukan hikmahnya, ga ada yg sia2...ky kata pepatah lama, "what doesn't kill u makes u stronger."
lagipula perasaan itu hak pribadi masing2... klo kt slh satu sobat gw sih, "yah, namanya juga perasaan...susah...ga bisa dipaksain." (copyright by: Edo Immanuel) sedangkan, klo gw bilang, perasaan itu ibarat jelangkung...datang ga dijemput, pulang ga diantar...
jd klo lu loving somebody, gak perlu si somebody-nya itu feel the same way ke elo juga...krn sehebat apapun lu usaha, klo mang sang Pencipta, yg menciptakan dan menjaga hati tempat seluruh perasaan bernaung, ga memberikan perasaan itu sama si somebody, ya wis...mo dibilang apa...bukan hak kita... klo menurut gw, kunci usahanya adalah di do'a dan ikhlas...tp bukan pasrah, ya...
jd, klo lu punya perasaan ini, lu mesti berbahagia dan bersyukur, itu ud cukup...
krn ga semua org bisa merasakan dan menikmati perasaan itu...sebagian ada yg terlalu berambisi mengejar dan membuat supaya perasaan itu terbalaskan sampe2 gak sadar mendzalimi ato menganiaya org lain, sebagian ada yg menangisi perasaan itu, sebagian lg ada yg bener2 cuek ga mo peduli dengan apa yg dirasainnya, sebagian ada yg berusaha keras menghilangkan perasaan itu, sebagian lagi ada yg terlalu meratapi perasaan itu smpe2 sakit ato parahnya gantung diri, dan banyak lg mereka yg kurang mensyukuri anugrah yg satu ini...
kenapa cukup mensyukurinya, soalnya perasaan ini membuat lembut hati yg kasar dan melunakkan hati yg keras...ga sedikit juga perasaan ini mengubah yg buruk mejadi baik...jd jgn dihapuskan dari hati, karena itu baik dan merupakan hadiah dari Tuhan...tp jgn juga dipahat terlalu dalam, krn itu ga' baik dan bisa jd mainannya setan... nah, klo perasaan itu terbalaskan, itu bonus buat lu...dan lu mesti makin bersyukur lg...dgn cara menjaga hati lu dan hatinya...begitu bukan, bung??
jd yah di anggep amal aja...klo mang ga dapet sekarang, mgkn nanti...klo nanti ga juga, yah itu ud yg terbaik buat lu...klo ga di sini mgkn nanti di sana...klo di sana ga dikasih juga...yakinlah sama kt2 gw ini...klo lu ikhlas, lu bkl dpt ganti yg jauh-jauh lebih baik...Dia yg tahu yg terbaik buat kita, bukan?? we'll never know what's gonna happen...
semoga yg Maha Menguasai yg gaib dan yg nyata, juga yg Maha Mengetahui apa yg tersembunyi maupun yg terlihat, memaafkan atas segala kekhilafan dari keterbatasan kita sebagai hamba-Nya... semoga yg Maha Menciptakan, Maha Memiliki, lagi Maha Membulak-balik hati, yg Menjaga, Merawat dan Melindungi seluruh isinya tanpa terkecuali, memperbaiki apa yg rusak di hati kita, melunakkan apa yg keras di dalamnya, memberikan kita yg terbaik hingga kita pun dapat memberikan yg terbaik untuk org lain... semoga kita dijadikan hamba2-Nya yg ikhlas dan saling mencintai satu sama lain... semoga segala yg kita lakukan, keluarkan dan usahakan menjadi amal dan yg kita dapatkan, terima dan miliki menjadi berkah yg diterima dan diridhoi-Nya... semoga yg Maha Adil dan Maha Pengasih lg Maha Penyayang, menggantikan apa yg hilang dari kita dengan ganti yg jauh lebih baik...sesungguhnya Dialah tempat kita berserah diri dan hanya pada-Nya kita kembali...
....amiinn.
_not too tough_not so sure_unsaint_but it's pure_ (;chup@chups;)
i'm just an ordinary boy with an ordinary life... but i think there's an extraordinary future waiting for me... so, just get on my boots and start walking...
